How Can I Be Conflicted?

How can I be conflicted about getting a new dog? What does it say about me as a person – as a dog mom – that I haven’t already brought home a little beast?

Without the schedule restrictions of a fur family, I have been able to work more, and I really enjoy it. (But what do I do with all the money I earn? I put it in a fund toward adopting a pup.). When I cook, I cry because there is no one at my feet hoovering up my crumbs. On the other hand, it has been really wonderful sleeping through the night without being awakened by insane barking. 

So many of my friends tell of stopping to adopt a pup on the way home from having to let one go. So what’s wrong with me?

What’s wrong with you?Where shall I start?

Baking

Are you baking? Yes I am! It smells like something delicious....is burning.

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Oh no! My cake!

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W Geordie lived with me, I didn’t need a timer. He always came to get me one minute before my food was done.

Don’t worry, my nose will wake me up at the right time.

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Dream Our World

Come see what my boys have been up to in Dream Our World. 

Inside Dream Our World, Bitey and Toby visit the museum of their dreams, view the world or art from a canine perspective and enjoy a day of unsupervised fun.

Dream Our World and other fine gifts are available from my shop at L Bowman Studios.

Swimming in December

What are you two doing? You know we're on mandatory water restriction. The water broke! The house is flooded! Yippee!

All the water I’ve tried to conserve went out the window with one broken appliance.

Sheesh, this flooded more than I expected.

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Dream Our World

Come with Bitey and Toby to the Museum of the Imagination in Dream Our World where they view the world of art from a canine perspective and enjoy a day of unsupervised fun!

Dream Our World, and other fine gifts, are available from my shop at L Bowman Studios.

Logs

That's a cute house you're building. What are you making it out of? Stinkin' Logs

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I’ve decided that I am still going to tell poop jokes from heaven.

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Never in a million years did I think I could miss scooping poop, but I do.

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Dream Our World

Come on a magical adventure with Bitey and Toby in Dream Our World as they visit the Museum of the Imagination. Inside they view the world of art from a canine perspective and enjoy a day of unsupervised fun.

Dream Our World and other fine gifts are available from my shop at L Bowman Studios.

After Three Days – Frankenpuppy Pupdate

This was my little Stinky Monster waiting for food when we got home from the vet. All he wanted was something to eat, but I wasn’t supposed to give him anything for three hours.

They were three very long hours.

There is still some dried blood on his fur, but for only three days, I think he is healing nicely.

Toby was only supposed to go outside to go to the bathroom for two weeks, but he is having none of that. He is insisting on several walks a day.

I’m happy we had a sunny day so he could watch some “Dog TV”.

For the first two days, my boy was cranky, but now he seems to be feeling better.* He has even been playing with his toys again. I am grateful for these good times and hope we work things out so we can have many more.

*Right after I wrote this, he attacked me again. Looks like we have a lot of work still in front of us.

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Dream Our World

Come see what Toby and Geordie like to do when they’re not recovering from surgery! Dream Our World is available from my shop at L Bowman Studios. Inside they view the world of art from a canine perspective and enjoy a day of unsupervised fun.

Dream Our World would make a great holiday gift!

Found Money

All year I have been saving the reward points that come with my credit card. I was hoping to consider those points Found Money spend them on a luxury – something I wanted but didn’t need. Last week I saw this decoration and thought, “I could give Christmas Puppy a family!! The cost is almost exactly the value of my points!”

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To his dismay, Christmas Puppy will have to continue being single, though, since in reality I will be putting those points toward Toby’s upcoming surgery.

I think Christmas Puppy would be have been more appreciative of my gift.

Of course he would be. I don’t want to have surgery!

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Morning

What a glorious morning.  I am so well rested that it feels like I've slept for days.

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What the heck's wrong with you guys?

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Yes, we’ve had another of “those” times. Toby was in pain without me realizing it, and the slightest brush against his fur turned him into Mr. Hyde.

Toby’s anger is explosive in these instances. He bites and thrashes and growls ferociously. In this state, he doesn’t recognize me. He doesn’t recognize his name. He doesn’t respond to commands. Normal Toby is adept at disentangling his paw from his leash, but Hyde Toby can’t reason that out. He just gets angrier and angrier until he lashes out and attacks the leash. As quickly as I could, I put Toby in his kennel and kept him there until I could take him to the vet in the morning.

It appears that what set Toby off was the cyst on his back. Of the two he started with, one healed nicely while the other lingered. The doctor drained and flushed the cyst again and sent us home with antibiotics, pain medication and Trazodone. I gave Toby the Trazodone for a few days but worried about him taking it for a prolonged period. He is very unsteady on his feet, and I swear I can hear him mumble “The colors…. the colors…” as he waves his paw in front of his nose.

I gave Toby sleepy pills for several days. When I finally stopped, it was as if he were a puppy again. He bounced around and played with toys. He asked to go outside, and when I took him he ran around with the zoomies for half an hour. When we came in, I could tell he still had energy to burn, so we went back out in the dark and played with tennis balls until he was so tired that I worried that he might hurt himself.

Thankfully my normal Toby seems to be back to inhabiting this terrier body. I don’t know who the monster was that had control for those four days, but I wish he would never come back. I’ve seen his face before. He is the one who controls the sleepwalking.

I talked to the vet about trying anti-anxiety medication on Toby. She said that Trazodone is for anxiety, but I didn’t like the way it affected him. She then suggested Gabapentin since it helps with both anxiety and pain. What Toby really needs, though, is an animal behaviorist to observe him and treat with both training and possibly medication.

Selfishly I wish that someone would watch my Toby and tell me, “Oh yes, he is a broken puppy. It’s not your fault he behaves this way”, but I doubt that will happen. Somehow, without meaning to, I have screwed up this little dog and made a dangerous mess of him.

I hope my little boy can survive my stupidity.

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I may survive you, but will you survive me?